I’ve never felt so useless

So worthless, so unreal

And never has anyone

Ever made me feel

That I didn’t measure up

Or I wasn’t good enough

It’s just the mask I wear

That says I’m really tough

But underneath I’m weak

Filled with doubt and insecure

As I watch our love fade away

All alone I shed a tear

 

I never feel appreciated

Affection seldom is shown to me

A little give and a little take

Is what loves supposed to be

But every time I fail

It’s the first thing that you see

And it always goes unnoticed

every time I succeed

such a miserable life

each night hoping not to wake

the spark of my life

my existence slowly fades….

Forever and a day

That’s how long

I want to hold you

To be near you

To comfort you

 

Forever and a day

That’s how long

I’ll want you

Cherish you

trust you

And love you

 

Forever and a day

Is nowhere near enough time

To express to you

All that I feel

In my heart

In my soul

 

Forever and a day

Is not even close

To the time I need

To give back to you

All the wonderful joy

You’ve given me

I remember yesterday

When we first got together

It wasn’t so hard

To imagine forever

Love was a sparkle

A gleam in our eye

We were so certain

It would never die

High on love

Just living our life

A brand-new world

As husband and wife

It didn’t really matter

That we didn’t have much

We were just content

To have each other’s touch

Your sexy eyes

Your beautiful smile

Those were the things

That made life worthwhile

But sometimes we lose sight

Of what we feel in our heart

Then slowly we realize

We’re falling apart

In the heat of the moment

Sometimes we go too far

and words spoken in anger

Often leave ugly scars

And dishonest actions

Can create a spark of doubt

That can never be extinguished

Nor forgotten about

Just look at us now

Can you see what we’ve become?

We’re so far away

From where we begun

Back when we first started

Everything seemed so right

Now it’s very rare

That we don’t fuss and fight

We were once inseparable

Our love was so strong

Searching through my memories

What could have gone so wrong

I know I still love you

With every inch of my heart

Inside me there’s a need for you

Even more than at the start

You are my world…. My life…

you own my heart and soul

I can truly say that I

Love you more than you’ll ever know

So, if we put our hearts together

I know we can find a way

To make all of our tomorrows

Feel more like yesterday

Everything is dark now

There’s no use to remember

the past is gone forever

like the cold winds of December

Along with all the promises

that been made through the years

and all the shattered dreams I’ve had

have filled my eyes with tears

But now I have an angel to catch them

as they fall in silver lines

and to dry them in the desert

like shes done so many times

yet careful not to burn me

with the touch of just her hand

a touch so soft and gentle

like the flowers at her command

my angel always comforts me

when life’s down and im feeling low

and engulfs me in serenity

only my angel can bestow.

 

So many memories are lost in the static
That fills the void like white noise
Love I once felt for you melts away
And becomes pools of indifference.
Your voice that once warmed my soul
Now is nothing more than an annoyance
A new star sparkles above me
Illuminating my dark nights.
A light so bright it blinds me
The sight of your face lost in the brilliance
The sting of your lies and betrayal
No longer causes me pain
So now I say with a smile
Goodbye. Forever farewell

If I could have foreseen yesterday

what has transpired today

I would’ve said goodbye to you

And sent you on your way

I cannot fight these waves of doubt

and tides of pain, there’s no way out

Can’t seem to break free

Of this hurt inside of me

….

I still remember a world

Where our lives were intertwined

A perfect mix of love and joy

Filled our days as well as nights

Now it’s just a dark place

Where no one wants to be

So very hard to get there

A place inside of me

….

What was I thinking

You’re not one of a kind

I must have been drinking

And totally out of my mind

Now my hearts sinking

Once again, I take a dive

Into the sea… the sea of my mind

….

So much anger, so much grief

A storm is raging inside of me

So much love you threw away

Tell me why you couldn’t stay

Now I’m drowning cat you see

In my own misery